WHY IS THE TRAIN COMING ON TIME TODAY, OF ALL DAYS?

HELLO! (www.bermudafunk.org => full text) 16 04 2023 & a new
radioshow past tttssss always again i find out-& thanks so much
much hey- that i create these radioshows (for myself)- simply as
this from yesterday- i tell myself the things i need to know!! it
is like: the lots of/in me- do something in diverse "times" one
writes it down, what the other- or who ever- send to my
brain&heart,& then my old self, from the past is telling
"me" in the now, what i have to know, when i remember the horrible
months of depression..& i didnt slept nearly 5 months, there
were days, i was awake over 24 h; without knowing whats wrong with
me & no light in sight & in my mind/(heart) my radioshows
been-( except 2 i really couldnt create there so-) just there for
me- even i watched myself fail, watched me suffering & judging
all the way long- but something inside of me, gave me power, to sit
into the car, sit before & breath with eva kaczor to the
psychedelic breath- were i cried out loud tears & tones &
despair* the random radiomusic of the 1h cardrive to mannheim gave
me power, too. when i stood in the studio, i felt very good
somehow,& more better after the show. then, i thought, i was
healed- i believed again in myself- felt the music in me- i was
very grateful for this happening! this "tiny" light i saw in me-
but i realised soon, that these dark thoughts in me- are still
there... so, may you see also the power & love in yourself-
that you may find for your outlets a creativity- what makes u feel
good (again), what comforts, what gives u new strength, brave,
acknowledgement & smiles, enriches, eases you, too me: "you are
so sweet!" my heart:" like cacao?" me:" no, like candyfloss!" ich:
"du bist so süss!" mein herz:" wie kakao?" ich:" nein, wie
zuckerwatte!" ben:"sen cok tatlisin!" kalbim:" kakao gibi?" ben:"
hayir,pamuk sekeri gibi!" following song sent me my heart- this was
this conversation between us then after i got this song in the
radio listened through my candy healty ears-- in this life suits
hundreds of disputes- how difficult it is for love- for giving
effort- amongest in these fierce thunderstorms--- actually actually
only i can cry so deeply about-so much love- wrapped in invinsible
silouhettes which are always changing in forms like a fire smoke
cloud in front of you there is so many which the little brain
cannot translate and grasp- how super great is all ha? "MAMA?
SHOULD I STAND HERE?" a little girl was asking her mum sometimes
only just one (kind)word could, may change a lot of peoples fate *
you are loved from live- very much. equal what youre doing- or you
are not doing. for that just, that you are breathing. it wants that
you are happy. can you believe that? i wish, that you will someday:
know- * CAVIT:".. for that it set out, evolve- for that you can
step into a new life- you have no other choice - to leave,let go of
this person in peace to give grant- if you wont will- you cant
barge, bring yourself into life- then you will be someone, who is
watching the life from far away- if you ask yourself the question
if this person comes back to you- life wont allow you not a single
day- to create, for use it to the max, and to expand." thanks hey!
ask your bodywisdom. to hold on , something, that isnt truthfully-
(FOR YOU) costs you a lot of energy - as you do believe. * a few
years ago i was telling here the same yet... i was at an exhibition
from my friend annika winkelmann named inner security and came to
the pleasure, to wear once an real protection criminal
investigation department vest- and what happened? I STOOD THERE
JUST LIKE A COP! TOTALLY SELF-ASSURED! - LIKE AN WET STRAIGHTEND UP
TEABAG! ... your protection vest lies directly in yourself! SET A
NEW INTENTION ! will you walk with fear in your hand? or will you
walk with love in your hand? GIVE IT A TRY HE!