OBSOLESCENCE

SWITCH-FÜRIMMERPUNK! SUN 16 01 2022 HI THERE*° * "im moment nichts,
danke!" * "su anda birsey degil, tesekkürler!" "nothing at the
moment, thanks!" // * "was wollen sie trinken?" * " neyi icmek
isterseniz?" * " what would you like to drink?" // * "im moment
nichts, danke!" * "su anda birsey degil, tesekkürler!" * "nothing
at the moment, thanks!" -- * JA! / YA ! // * was macht dein lächeln
mit dir? * what makes your smile with you? * gülümsen seninle ne
yapiyor? //* unwiederbringlich * irrecoverable // * wie möchte ich
es haben? * how i want it to have? * ben nasil istiyorum? // * was,
wenn alles möglich wäre? * what, when everything is possible? * ne,
hersey olabilirse nasil olur? // * "robert, du musst dich
konzentrieren,sonst wars das!* "robert, you have to be focused,
otherwise this was it!" // * wie jeder was weiß.. // * how
everybody knows something... // * herkez birseyin bildigi var ya..
// * liebe ist die beste kosmetik * love is the best cosmetic
%&%&%&% * in the ca 3 past years, im following german l
gonzalez a- on youtube- he sometimes posts music or albums, which
do create feelings or thoughts in me, which i wasnt aware yet- also
this supermusicianman of guitar, singer, producer and songwriter
adrian kelvin borland, which arrived in london at 6.december 1957
until 26. april 1999 - since ive first listened to his music-
everytime i get very sad, melancholy- in some tracks, i get
gooseskin-and also tears- i dont know what this is, sympathy- call
it love- somehow i feel adrian borland so near. end of the 70´s
he´ve started with the british band the outsiders- with a new
musicstyle and extended occupation he played with the band the
sound until 1987- beside projects followed...and also a solo
carrier-- adrian suffered since the middle of the 80´s visible on
depression, probably released from a schizoaffective error. 2
saturdays ago ive watched a documentary about his life- there ive
had to cry and cry- behind several tries of suicide, he also warned
his dad, that the one- inside of him, will kill them- and what was
true- a nurse who had wanted to make a documentary of his illness
have said, that she feels very sad, cause of the loss of their son.
that he one day will get successful in his suicide try- oh how must
this feel like for parents, or friends. sometimes he was in a
psychiatry, also during the producing of albums- but he get out
fast after taken the medicine-- he drunk a lot too, and everytime,
he got a guitar in his hands, he got well- he thought, that caused
of the medicine and pills, he wasnt able to sing well... so... he
did not use them always and deciced himself for music- adrian
borland was in the middle of the records of his new album harmony
and destruction, as he has fallen hisself into the front of a train
on an early mondaymorning in april 1999 in wimbledon and has died.
the album got released without adrian borland in 2002. ive cried
maybe also, caused, on a situation which ive got with my sister-
and that i am very glad, that the similar illness and suicide try
of her, wasnt successful- that she´s alive- and also glad, that my
depression got away the end very "fast" or faster than by others. i
dont know, when do a soul decide to go such oneway street? i mean,
what can one at last time do, to change the soul´s game, where is
the endpoint? when are too much braincelles got ill? are we
authorized ? do not life/ CREATOR send us always signs and help?
oh. while writing it came to me, that we are all part of the
creature / fountain head-- so is this the free willy ?!? i wish,
that adrian borland is very fine there wherever he might be now-
and that YOU take good care of your beautiful self- thank you! *
vielen dank an deine wertvolle lebenszeit.. das du mir zugehört
hast.